Do you ever wake up in the night and find your mind filled with fear about something you can do nothing about or something that most likely isn't real? I do.
Last night I woke up and had to use the bathroom. I got up and when I opened the door to leave my bedroom I thought I smelled gas! We have a natural gas fireplace that heats our home, and even thought we have natural gas detectors in the home, I still always fear that something will happen. So I walked around the house smelling it to see if it was my mind or real. (This has happened to me before, and it was nothing.)
I then went to check on my baby. The night before she had been crabby and up a lot. Tonight she was sleeping soundly again and I started to worry that if she had struggled to breath I did not hear her! But if she was sleeping well, I did not want to wake her up by checking on her, so I decided to leave her be.
After using the bathroom I went back to my room and crawled in bed. My mind was racing and I was worried. I was so tired and wanted to sleep, I needed to sleep! I knew that if I kept entertaining the thoughts in my mind I would never fall back to sleep, speaking from experience. I also knew that fear was probably driving my thoughts. So I said a silent prayer, asking Heavenly Father to help me to either go to sleep if there was no need to fear, or to be prompted to get up and act if the need was really there. The fear left me as I worked to replace it with faith! I fell asleep so quickly and when I woke in the morning everything was just fine.
Too often I worry about unnecessary things. I waste my energy on this fear or worry, which takes it away from areas of real importance. I learned a valuable lesson last night, to turn to my Father in Heaven for direction, especially when I find myself afraid. Hopefully I can be more quick to turn to prayer in all matters of my daily life so I can put my energy in those things that matter most.
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